Won the Game.

Today I am so happy.
Today is the day I let go of my Ego and saved one relation from getting broken. I was the one who initiated it. A big deal for this burdened donkey.
This is the first time I went out of the 'Lakshman Rekha' I built around myself and surprisingly no 'Ravan' came in my way and harmed me. In contrary, I am actually feeling good and feel like dancing and hopping all over the place.
But as it is the first time I do feel some obligation in one corner of my mind as it is not easy to just fall so down off your mountain of ego. Actually I feel that I shouldn't have done this. Was it right to leave your self-respect in the bin. Was it the win over ego or the falling of self-respect? I am confused. Need to retrospect. Hope this confusion clears.
Again, Hope for the Best and Live for the Worst.


Wish me Luck.


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Being Egoistic.

 Sri Sai baba says -"God is the Sun and when His rays fall upon your heart, not impeded by the clouds of egoism, the lotus blooms and the petals unfold."

Ego is actually a worm dwelling inside you which slowly slowly eats up your life and you just stand at a corner and watch the whole game. It eats up your social circle and you just let it happen, it eats up your relations with your near and dear ones and you are just not willing to mend it up though may be from inside you are dying to save it. You may name it as 'Self-Respect' but what you don't know is that they both are like heads n tail. This is what is called ego.

All through my life, I always had to choose between me and my Ego and obviously I chose my so called 'Self-Respect'. It was my juvenility or a part of my character I don't know but its adverse effects were always eating me up. I have sore relation with my parents and lost one of my best friends all because of my 'self-respect'. No, it is not as if I am arrogant or selfish or something else but whatever it is what I know is that I am the one who is the loser.

Though I have realized what my weak point is but the question arises is that whether I'll be able to change myself after all these years of malpractice. 'Better do than say' is the word.

Let’s hope I'm able to throw away this holy shit out of my life. Hope for the best and live for the worst.

Wish me luck.

"The essence of a self-reliant and autonomous culture is an unshakable egoism.”


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